Bai bai :)

Jaa ne! I will be moving to blogspot  

I’ve no idea why there are no more options for me to change my blog’s background image. And my widgets for Plurk and mydeco just disappeared. And my message tag board also left me. And sometimes these things really happen here. So, moving on…

Watashi no hirugohan desu :)

Uhm, obviously, somebody’s pleased with herself and how she organized her bento…

 

Sausages and hash browns and rice Please don’t ask me what the difference is between the photos  

Mga Baliw in Bangkok :D

I found old photos too from our Bangkok trip The person who somewhat resembles me is… me. Much younger and thinner I kind of had an enormous head like in Ananyana too. These days, my head looks small because of my now-huge built (plus the kendo bulk )

Approaching one of the temples. At this time, I don’t know why the tour guide seemed to forget everyone else and was chatting with us the whole time She was really nice, though. Provided us extra information

There are the monks. The tourist guide told us we can only take photos from the outsise. They were chanting so we were also not supposed to make any sort of noise.

These were taken when we got to the back of the temple where the monks were chanting. The guide told us it’s the area where people pray for those who have passed away. 

This is also from the same area. Please don’t mind the electric fan

This one is beautiful    

This is across the area of the dead.

This is one of those times we took a cab to go someplace. Or I think this was in the van of the tour guide. I can’t remember.

Okay, PLEASE LET ME EXPLAIN. Lol. I think I was trying to take a photo of th length of my skirt, or how it looked on me or something, or if it made me look shorter or something, then SOMETHING, or I mean SOMEONE, just had to pop in.

This is the first photo I took upon checking in. Naturally, after this, I just HAD TO lie down and I think I napped As usual. Tamad. 

Big head This was taken in the plane. I didn’t even notice the earrings. Lol.

In the afternoons, since it was SOOOOOOOO hot and humid, we’d shop then wait in line for a cab, then upon getting back to our room, throw ourselves on our beds and absorb the air conditioning This is my sister falling asleep

I took a Sprite, or something like it, from the fridge before allowing the bed to trap me

Syempre I still managed to take a photo. After this, was oblivion  

Some of those pretty and ornate temples we went to.  

Some temple photos. 

Trying to be scary. Pagbigyan na.     

Syempre, while in the cab, I had to take a photo of the “city”. Although I’m not sure what I wanted to focus on, if any. Lol.

Classic shot ng mga tao ngayon. Hahaha! In any case, what is it with closets? This is inside the closet again

My sister with her facial expression from her photos when she was 2 years old Pero nice the background ha Bumagay This was before we had our first dinner and I had Thai Iced Milk Tea for the very first time and I died and went to heaven

We had coffee in Starbucks and I learned the very important lesson of NEVER ordering Green Tea in CAKE form

Oh noes. While my head was a lollipop, my sister’s shrunk!!! Lol. 

Aaaaahhhh! Shopping

Since my sister might kill me for posting her photo (see her photo as she fell asleep), I will be fair and post this photo which she took of me as I got up in the morning, all puffy and not quite yet human        

Am going back to Bangkok!!!

Remembering Ananyana

I TOTALLY love Ananyana. I found these old photos from my trip with my sister, among other files YET to be organized Just want to share some

Naturally, the first thing we did after checking in is throw ourselves on the bed and scream, “VACAY!!!” Total happiness We took this photo after realizing that we might fall asleep right away

This photo belongs to an entire Closet Series of In-The-Closet photos. Anyway I’m placing just one here because I can’t find the other seven or eight photos

Oh wait, this belongs to the Closet Series. I didn’t recognize immediately. I thought my forehead was some landscape.

Who is this? God I look SO different

Oh my gosh. I was not yet too fat, so my head looks enormous. 

I swear. Lollipop. Lol.

Okay. Medyo lollipop pa rin but my color was starting to get better at this time so what the hell

Yawn

Finally, a yawn. 

Found the pear vodka my mom uses for cooking. 

For some reason all the Kurant is gone. So had to make do with peary here. I don’t like how it tastes but I am in dire need of a deep sleep, or at least instant sleep for a couple of hours or so.

Running

Since the start of my week-long break, I’ve been brisk walking and running for over two and a half kilometers daily, to help increase my endurance and stamina for kendo. Practice is becoming more intense and I need all the energy When working days come back, I will try my best to still run daily. In any case, I can work freelance and on a part time basis which makes it easier for me to make time for running.

Cleaning Up :D

Been sort of cleaning up again and making space for MORE THINGS to obtain from SHOPPING

The Last Morning

When I think of the last morning before this change, I wince and look away as if that morning was right in front of me.

The Mexican music was softly playing in the background, and I just woke up from my nap. The day started out happy, and I woke up happy. The morning felt so perfect. 

That morning and the evenings before that and everything else do not seem to make much sense anymore. 

However I know that if I try to make sense of everything, I will never have any definite answers. So maybe it’s better that I don’t. And then maybe it IS much better to follow what the self inside me says and just stick to it like what proper and balanced grown ups do. And just continue to work on keeping a positive outlook, focusing on the good that can be done and the happiness I can bring, especially to myself.

Morning Sickness

It’s almost 3 am and I still can’t sleep. I am starting to feel that old morning sickness thing which only happens when I work overnight or when I party too much and I realize the sun is starting to rise. 

I have been working so hard the past couple of days, dealing with something, yet trying to keep an open and positive perspective. I don’t want to focus on the things I perceive to be unfortunate or maddening and instead I try to just look at what good can still come out of it and what I can do to help myself and others involved. 

Last night and this afternoon, I was able to sleep, though I would awaken every few minutes or so, usually from different nightmare stories.

Tonight, though, I think it’s taking its toll. 

I find myself somewhat fearing what the future will bring. And the path I will need to take to get there. 

Today I was generally okay. I found myself laughing at things the way I normally would, I ate well, I was even able to take a nap despite the nightmares, and there were no butterflies in my stomach.

But now there are. Plenty. 

And I think it’s the silence or sometimes my blank moments when I am caught off guard. 

Things really are so different. 

I don’t want to think of it as a bad thing, but rather as a reality that anyone else may be dealing with, some even in much worse cases. But somehow I guess I need to let some out a bit. 

I’m not ready to talk about it yet and when the time comes when I do need to talk about it, I don’t know how I will be. 

It’s that very thin line. Between a few days back and where things are now. Those few days ago seem like very old and crusty pictures already. 

And then now, there is this thing. This huge change. I honestly don’t think it has fully penetrated my system yet. When it starts sinking in, I turn away and pretend it’s not there, or, I tell myself it’s there but it’s just at a safe distance. 

When I am caught off guard, though, I turn and realize how close its face is to mine. Sometimes it feels like it’s breathing down my neck. 

However most of the time I find it easy to just wrap something around myself and turn away, and know that I can handle it, in my own time, and then I work double time on keeping the positive outlook on things. 

I do not even identify which one exactly is affecting me at a time, but I guess the fact that things have changed remarkably is what pains me most right now. 

I feel so alone, and so tired. 

Tomorrow is a new day and I hope each day becomes better than the rest. Tomorrow is another journey. I know I am brave enough to face it, but I can’t say it won’t always hurt. 

This is a decision I made and I hope and expect people, especially those close to me, to respect it. 

But the reality is there. When these times come and I am haunted by something I won’t even fully face yet. Or maybe even if I wanted to face it, only time will tell what’s going to happen.

Things may have changed, but I guess I’ll just have to ride with it. I shouldn’t let it get the better of me. My sad moments should not consume me. 

I prefer not to talk about it, except that right now I can’t sleep and the pain is kind of causing my boundaries to crack. 

Finished My Coffee :)

I just drank the last of my Japanese Instant Coffee (that’s all it says on the label - Instant Coffee In Katakana it says puriimiam ) and will now move on the UCC 118 from onee-san Domo!

Our Latest

This is my latest photo with my sister after kendo practice

I Want… :(

I remember the time we went to Cold Stone Creamery in Japan and I ordered something with coffee flavor *crave*

I found this link which made me crave some more!!

Teriyaki Girls :D

This was like, a couple of weeks ago. After wolfing down Teriyaki Boy tabemono

*discreetly looks for escape route* :D

Thought bubble: OMG muka syang killer.

lol.

Watashi no atarashii tomodachi :)

I have a new friend! (Domo, onee-san!) MIHARA JUN-SAN!

He came in this box. with all the tiny sushi, matcha, biru, handomaiku, and biiru  

You can also check out this link if you want to see more of him :

http://cgi.ebay.com.hk/ws/eBayISAPI.dll?ViewItem&item=230323855021

Mini Me

My cousin’s first daughter creepily resembles me when I was her age When I look at her it’s like looking at my baby photos

 (Wig yun ha. Hehe. And I also had baby photos with a curly wig )

How Apt :D

Day seems like a good day
Burn a bridge or two
One with old wood creaking
Burn away right on cue
I try to be not like that but some people really suck

:D

Beautiful Disaster by 311

Planning (daw)

I was cleaning up my gmail when I found some photos sent by Kuriishi-san last December when we were working on our per-department scorecard and budget plan for 2009. We were cramming and finally, around middle of the afternoon, we were done!! (Later on, my department, will also be, DONE! )

Halt

Nihon-go II classes are starting today but I didn’t register because it’s from 1 to 4 pm and I won’t be able to make it to kendo on time :T 

Loving our Lunch :D

For the past month or so, Kuriishi-san and I have been having our hearty lunches at the Ensaymada Factory where the owner (a really friendly lady ) already knows what we will be getting the moment we step in since we’ve been there a lot (crispy adobo for me and sirloin for Kuriishi-san) Sadly, though, when we move offices we won’t be able to visit as often anymore In any case, while we’re still working within the area, we have those lunches to look forward to The ensaymadas are great but we also LOVE the cheese rolls and the brownies  

Running

The weather is LOVELY!!!

End of the first month

It’s the end of this year’s first month, the Year of Resolutions

Hmmm. So far, generally okay. 

• Health is okay, I just need to get a vaccine against something.
• Hearty lunches are happy of course
• Happy to know that there’s a place nearby where I can get my Suntories and mochis
  
• It’s all just a coincidence that all previous items started with H. Hehehe.
• Okane has always been with me despite all the shopping
• Hunny-versary! Hehe. *HUGS*
• Thank you for all the support I get at work. (Meron naman :p Even if I’m not OLD enough to shower some with money so they would suck up to me I am not exactly a sugar momma ya know :p)
• Rolling Star, Houki Boshi, and Daia No Hana, among others
• My Fruits Basket Manga
• Still manage to survive in kendo
• Finished my Nihon-go 1
• Had a nice SPLURGE day
• Started my Animal Crossing: City Folk
• My Palm Centro yay
• Actually finished some items and projects
• Have decided on a color

Aisu Kurimu :D

Check out one of the previous entries and take note of the ice cream I said I bought from the convenience store across our hotel I bought it the other day here I’m so happy Then I got a number of grape Suntories which is really lovely  

My ice cream is currently sitting in the freezer

Finished the first book :)

On to my next reading… but for the meantime, I go back to the nostalgic FF VII

Houki Boshi (Younha)

Looking up to the night sky alone, I saw a comet In an instant it burst open, and disappeared
When I think of you, my heart aches
I want to see you right now
But I can’t fly

If I could turn into a comet
I would run through the sky and fly
No matter what tomorrow is like, these feelings are strong
So this comet will never break open

If I could turn into a comet
I would run through the sky and fly
It will definitely reach you, in the light of this moment
Your moment shines, bringing the sky around
If I could turn into a comet
I would certainly be by your side, at any time

Last Day

On Saturday it’s gonna be my last day of Nihon-go no kurasu My sensei’s gonna bring sushi which he’ll be making and the rest of us are gonna bring whatever food we can bring Which reminds me I have to do my emailed exam soon I’ve printed it out and I just need to actually take time. Been so busy with work :T

Wow are those golden letters? Wow. GOLD. Here are some gold bars: 

*GOLD BARS*

Yay

Because the food is really good in Suzu-kin, I had my dinnerthere. In fairness, the place looked so much cleaner and seemed roach-free Plus we took the table at the center, not those against the walls

I had pork teppanyaki and maguro sushi and they were SOOO good

Cat-Mare

I will only have three of them and they are all on my office desk - Husky, Broody, and Puuru

Waaaahhh

Saturday approaches…

I hope to survive being back in kendo…

PeachiePalm

Okay… I was just thinking of a Palm Treo while writing the previous entry - tee hee. Then I went to the Palm site to just check on their latest unit Isn’t she beautiful?

I wanted the blue one but here only the Onyx Black and Glacier White are available. Anyway I so love the white one and I automatically felt it is meant for me

I started calling up the authorized resellers of Palm and almost ALL units are sold out. Only ONE more unit is left, and it’s the WHITE one, and I will go pick it up today  

I so LOVE it